It sounds crazy but I’m thankful for the process of healing from a broken heart, and I’m thankful for the pain it caused my heart. The experience of brokenness allowed me to discover myself. Like miniature pieces of a broken mirror, it allowed me to see myself through various sets of eyes: eyes of love, eyes of graces, eyes of acceptance and eyes of beauty. It allowed me to see myself through eyes I never knew I had and through eyes that I never thought I was worthy enough to possess.
Though the process was definitely in my Top 5 “Most Undesirable Experiences” the truth is that, had it not been for my brokenness, I wouldn’t know how powerful, strong and brave I could be when faced with great pain and adversity. When I wake up in the morning, though, I don’t always feel happy about the way I mistreated my heart, I wake up with a peace that’s priceless. Like many women who’ve made bad dating decisions, I do often wonder if my poor judgment has delayed my timing in meeting my spouse however, I leave that mindless worry at the wayside by remembering God’s promises.
He causes all things to work together on my behalf (Romans 8:28). His plans are for good and not harm (Jeremiah 29:11). He will give me beauty for ashes (Isaiah 61:3). He will give me the desires of my heart (Psalms 139:14). He will do exceedingly and abundantly above all I could ask or think (Ephesians 3:20).
Those promises bring joy to my heart and rest to my concerns.
When I wake up each day, I am thankful that my heart no longer wrestles with fragments of pain, confusion and insecurity. When I look in the mirror each day, I see the whole picture…the beautiful girl who was fearfully and wonderfully made in God’s own image (Genesis 1:26-27). Today, that girl is a strong, confident, God-fearing woman and she’s fine too!
All of the broken pieces of the past have created one of the greatest love stories ever authored by God. Those crazy, long nights of crying have watered seeds of faith. Those days of confusion have been transformed into a confident faith in God (Godfidence). That girl with the broken heart has become an encourager to God’s children and a believer of His every Word.
Sometimes one moment of brokenness can be the best thing that ever happens to your faith because it allows you to encounter God like never before.
Cheers to my broken past. :-*