“Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin…” (Zechariah 4:10)
So I’m on day 3 of launching my blog and for the first time, I’m finally realizing that building your dream is truly a full-time job. Building your dream requires a full investment of your hope, faith and courage. It truly requires you to stare at your fears and speak to them as Nehemiah spoke to his enemies. Nehemiah was in the process of rebuilding the walls of Jerusalem when his enemies attempted to distract him by asking him to meet with them. Nehemiah knew their request to meet with him was actually an attempt to halt his work so he replied by saying: “I am doing a great work and I cannot come down. Why should I stop this great work to come and meet with you?” (Neh. 6:3). In effect Nehemiah was saying “No, I have a mission. I am focused. I must complete what I began and meeting with you will hinder my work. A meeting with you is not worth my time.”
In life, our goals are those great walls and fear is our enemy. Fear’s job is to stop you in your tracks and prevent your progress. Fear’s job is to stop the wall from being built–it’s job is to stop you from achieving your goals.
Yesterday evening, this scripture immediately came to mind when I logged onto my website to check the viewer stats for my blog. When I announced the launch of my website on Wednesday afternoon, I had a whopping total of 189 pageviews. I read those statistics and refreshed the page to make sure I had not misread anything. I thought “wow, this is incredible!” I arrived home Thursday evening to check the stats and saw that I had much lower page hits. I had 12 pageviews related to my post. I thought “wow, only 12? Quite naturally, I expected numbers similar to launch day. I expected another 189 views.
Thoughts of fear and doubt slowly crept into my mind. I began to wonder “am I doing the right thing? Do people really care about the things that God places on my heart each day? Do people genuinely “like” my posts when they hit that button?” So many thoughts and questions ran through my mind when suddenly, the verse in Nehemiah 6:3 came to mind. In thinking about that scripture, I began to realize that I was allowing fear to speak to me. I was allowing fear to control the work that God has called me to do; I was allowing fear to tear down my wall.
The truth about my blog is that, I honestly have no idea of what God is going to do with it. I have no idea of where this blog will take me but, neither of these things are important because I am working for God and not for myself. I didn’t begin writing to make myself look good. Most of all, I did not begin sharing for the purpose of obtaining “likes.” I began writing to make God look good. I began writing to lead others to Him. I began sharing the words inside of my heart so that I could encourage others to pursue what God has placed inside of their hearts.
After viewing Thursday’s statistics, I began to contemplate whether I should continue to post each day’s message on both Facebook and my blog. I missed seeing all of those likes! However, God reminded me that like Nehemiah “I am doing a great work and I cannot come down.” I cannot abort my mission and vision due to fear. The reality is that, my blog is the beginning of a new chapter and a new season. It’s the beginning of a new work. It’s the beginning of a vision that I have set for myself and one that was inspired by God’s word. I must be faithful to my vision by believing in it. More importantly, I must remember that I don’t do my work for myself; I do God’s work for God.
In learning this lesson yesterday, I now realize that I must begin to do things in a new way during this new season. If not, how will I ever experience the fullness of God? Yes, there are still times when I may post a message on Facebook however, it’s time for me to begin a new work. It’s time for me to fully invest in my dream of being an encourager, and being who God has called me to be. It’s time for me to spread God’s message of love, hope and encouragement in a new environment and to those who may not know Him at all. It’s time for me to begin this work and never come down…=)